I originally wrote and published this post in June on my old website. I was reading through old writing samples this morning and came across it. I was immediately just overwhelmed with God's goodness. I had lunch with a sweet friend yesterday who, probably unbeknownst to her, had a hand in the uneasiness of my heart the night I wrote the previous post. Yesterday I was reminded how important it is to worship and praise the Lord even when we are broken because He. Is. Faithful. Only He can redeem and put our pieces back together. I am so thankful for my sweet friend and her family. I am thankful for the restoration that the Lord has done in our hearts, and I am thankful that we both love and serve the same King of the World- and serve Him together.
Be encouraged today, sweet sister, that if you are in a valley, you will not be there forever. If you believe and have accepted Jesus as your Savior you will be with Him on the highest of mountains one day,
In the last days the mountain of the LORD’s temple will be established as the highest of the mountains; it will be exalted above the hills, and peoples will stream to it. Micah 4:1
As we wait for glory together, I encourage you to put your faith and trust in Him fully, and to remember that there is no heart ache too big or too small for our God.
Originally Posted June 29, 2019
There are times in our lives when we know something in our minds, but our hearts-bodies-emotions have a hard time catching up. Sometimes we are so numb over a situation that we cannot seem to see over or around whatever situation we are in. It can be a medical diagnosis, job situation, marital problem, or relationship issue—whatever it might be for some reason or another, logic takes a back seat and fear along with worry take over both our hearts and minds. When talking to others, we know what they are saying is true. We recognize that our thoughts are irrational, but yet here we sit. Alone. In a room. And out of tears. So much out of tears that we feel as if we have been hit with a 2x4—dehydrated and exhausted. As I sit here and type, I am literally fighting against what I know to be true—that God is good and I need to submit to His will. Every fiber in my body does not want to. It would be so much easier to just sit in misery and fear rather than just decide to lift my eyes up to the One who knows my path and desires more for my life than I even do. I got to thinking about situations in the Bible where someone’s heart had a hard time catching up with their minds. After thinking for quite a while, the obvious answer popped into my head… Jesus. In the garden.
36 Then Jesus went with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he said to his disciples, “Sit here, while I go over there and pray.” 37 And taking with him Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled. 38 Then he said to them, “My soul is very sorrowful, even to death; remain here, and watch[a]with me.” 39 And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” 40 And he came to the disciples and found them sleeping. And he said to Peter, “So, could you not watch with me one hour? 41 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”42 Again, for the second time, he went away and prayed, “My Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.” 43 And again he came and found them sleeping, for their eyes were heavy. 44 So, leaving them again, he went away and prayed for the third time, saying the same words again. 45 Then he came to the disciples and said to them, “Sleep and take your rest later on.[b] See, the hour is at hand, and the Son of Man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. 46 Rise, let us be going; see, my betrayer is at hand.”
By no means am I saying that whatever situation we are going through is to be compared to the night before Jesus was to be crucified, but the lesson here is invaluable. At the darkest most difficult times in our lives, we are to say, not my will but your will. One difference between us and Jesus is that there is a good chance, at least I know for my own personal problem, that we played some kind of role in it happening. Jesus did nothing. He led a perfect sinless life and did not deserve one ounce of the death He died for us. And yet he said, “not as I will, but as you will”.
My heart is still having a hard time catching up to my mind. I know God is good, and I know that whatever the outcome of my situation—he is still good. My prayer tonight is that I can turn my thoughts away from myself and allow the Lord to work on my heart.
-Bryan & Katie Torwalt
Peace, be still Calm this soul I need You here now Restore my hope I confess, I've been afraid Remind my heart, Lord Increase my faith So I will run into the waves As courage comes to take fear's place With perfect love, perfect love O, what can take away My hallelujah No darkness can contain My hallelujah Your cross has made the way For my hallelujah My hallelujah You give life No man can take No power in hell Could separate And who can stand Against Your might With armies of angels By my side So I will run into the waves As courage comes to take fear's place With perfect love, perfect love O, what can take away My hallelujah No darkness can contain My hallelujah Your cross has made the way For my hallelujah My hallelujah Nothing can take my hallelujah Nothing can take my hallelujah Shadows will fade, darkness will break I'll keep on singing Your praise Nothing can take my hallelujah Nothing can take my hallelujah Shadows will fade, darkness will break I'll keep on singing Your praise Nothing can take my hallelujah Nothing can take my hallelujah Shadows will fade, darkness will break I'll keep on singing Your praise O, what can take away My hallelujah No darkness can contain My hallelujah Your cross has made the way For my hallelujah My hallelujah O, what can take away My hallelujah No darkness can contain My hallelujah Your cross has made a way For my hallelujah My hallelujah